I remember a time when I was struggling as I prepared for communion. It was a Friday and I was really NOT wanting to let go of a vicious attitude. Not just a harmful attitude but plans for destruction as well.
You should know that I think that to come to the table in a healthy manner means basically to say, "Jesus, I'm yours and you're mine. You've bought me. I will follow you wherever. And yes, my desires and plans in (insert whatever) are not from you. So I won't pursue them. Give me strength to walk with you. This is the real desire of my heart. The part of me that wants to run is emerging from my unbelief and brokenness... from my refusal to live in this hard "in between" time.
As I jogged and listened to Walk On and wrestled with my tired heart... images from Romans 8 kept coming to me
And love is not the easy thing
The only baggage you can bring...
And love is not the easy thing....
The only baggage you can bring
Is all that you can't leave behind
And if the darkness is to keep us apart
And if the daylight feels like it's a long way off
And if your glass heart should crack
And for a second you turn back
Oh no, be strong
Walk on, walk on
What you got they can’t steal it
No they can’t even feel it
Walk on, walk on...
Stay safe tonight
You're packing a suitcase for a place none of us has been
A place that has to be believed to be seen
You could have flown away
A singing bird in an open cage
Who will only fly, only fly for freedom
Walk on, walk on
What you've got they can't deny it
Can’t sell it, can’t buy it
Walk on, walk on
Stay safe tonight
And I know it aches
And your heart it breaks
And you can only take so much
Walk on, walk on
Home… hard to know what it is if you’ve never had one
Home… I can’t say where it is but I know I'm going home
That's where the hurt is
I know it aches
How your heart it breaks
And you can only take so much
Walk on, walk on
Leave it behind
You've got to leave it behind
All that you fashion
All that you make
All that you build
All that you break
All that you measure
All that you steal
All this you can leave behind
All that you reason
All that you sense
All that you speak
All you dress up
All that you scheme…
